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Im Matt Silva...I love Salt and Vinigar Chips...lok at al my misspeled wordz!!!!!

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 00:39:31 GMT

My name is Matt and I smell like dish soap.

I also can't use chopsticks because I am dyslexic.

Well that sucks it seems i have problems lol

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Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
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OK Today was movie day

Mon, 25 Feb 2002 03:23:35 GMT

Ok I woke up today to a phone call from Ashton saying that she wanted to do something since it was the last day of vacation and that we wouldn't see each other for awhile after because I have COMPS and the semi but i don't think i am going to the semi I really don't want to go I went to the senior junior one with Mel and we had fun but it wasn't a good semi it was more fun at Julie's house after LOL WEll whatever anyway Ashton calls me so I am like ok well what are we going to do she says i don't know i will call you after dance. So I go and call Ben and he is like oh we can make the movie you wrote. I was like ok why not but I wrote it in like eighth grade and it is really bad. I mean really really bad. But i was like ok what ever i don't really care it sounded like something to do and i was ok with it. So we call Mitchell to see if he could come and he is like no because he was saying goodbye to the dogs lol THat was fine though no big deal. So then Toni and Ashton came and brought there camera and then Ben came and we had fun shooting. It took us quite a while to do the stupid first four scenes but it was quite fun and we are going to finish soon. Yay I did Tricia's points and she got a jacket she has 607 points so she def. gets her jacket this year. (* RULER CAN KISS YOUR BUT * LOL ISJ) So my house was really fun today except for a few minor problems that Ben and Ashton had. Well I think its great now that they are communicating all of their problems with each other. If me and Toni have problems we always talk about it with each other. WHich is great that now Ben and Ashton are starting to do that. WELL TODAY WAS GREAT BUT NOW SCHOOL IS COMING BACK. I hate school. I really dont' I actually like some of my classes its just i am not in the mood for it I have been goign to bed at 4 o'clock every night and I just had a large mug of coffee and I am never going to go to school. I am excited that I am going to get to see Julie again I miss her so much lol. SHe went to Colorado and I get to see MEL and Brit I saw Boyce and Nick and Taylor and Jess and OSON and TOn and ALex and stef and stacy and probably more people over vacation so I will be happy to see them too but not as happy lol. I did my math project it is completely done I am so happy it isn't due until March 4 but i have COMPS so i wanted everything done that I knew had to be done. YOU know what I mean. Ok Well today was really great but I am going to go watch a movie or something because I am really not tired so I will be going now it was nice chatting Kayla we'll do lunch lol. Oh wait I have great news I am currently a friend of echofly again i mean under her friend thing in livejournal that made my day becuase i thought that she was mad at me or something i was like wow what did i do. I love you echofly. OK NOW I AM GOING TO GO BYE BYE KAYLA(journal's name) bye bye

FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN

Sun, 24 Feb 2002 06:38:36 GMT

I had so much fun today. I woke up with Stacy calling me saying that we were supposed to go skating so i got up and we went skating with her and alex. We had so much fun Stacy got hit on. LOL But the funny thing was that the one of the guys that hit on her was my cousin lol. So she told me to act like i was with her so people would stay away lol. Alex and Stacy are good skaters i on the other hand suck but i have only skated 2 times in like 8 years. OK so not only was my day awesome but so was my night. I come home and I get called by Ashton and Toni but they can't do anythign because Ashton is babysitting. So then I go to Mitchell's with Ben and we had so much fun. We worked on our FNL it is so much fun. It is like Saturday Night Live but it is Friday Night Live. We did the first two skits in our first episode and I was the host lol It was so funny doing it. What a ball i love those two they are hilarious lol except when they chased me with hammers and i like flipped over the couch and knocked over the set lol. Then Mitchell's mom made us like the best brownies I have ever tasted in my entire life. Toni would have died lol Toni loves brownies. I didn't talk to Toni today that is so depressing i talked to her through other people but i got home from Mitell's at like 10:15. And then I came on line did points with Tricia and then it was already to late to call Toni and now I feel bad. But I would rather have her sleep and then call her when I wake up and we can all hang out tomorrow. We can make my movie lol I wrote it in like 8th grade and it is so bad but it would be fun becuase i love filming stuff because you get to look back on it. Well that's all Kayla I had a great day today I have nothing to complain about lol. I have to call Kim because I want to see if she can get the sheet music for The Elephant Love Medley it is such a great song and we are singing it for Solo Ensemble we will sound great she has a beautiful voice and i am "decent" (TONI< BEN < ASHTON< MITCHELL). Well thats all Kayla (journal's name) I will talk to you tomorrow love ya Kayla bye bye.

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ONCE AGAIN I GET SCREWED

Sat, 23 Feb 2002 05:31:27 GMT

OK do you want to hear this now. Two of my close friends were on the verge of breaking up. Because there was a lack of communication. So what do I do. I as a good friend go and talk to the non communicator and tell her to communicate. Then what happens! Everything is perfect they are not going to break up and everyone is very happy. Then BEN leaves and I tell Ashton that she doesn't have to worry about breaking up because she communicated with him. And the only way he would dump her is if she didn't communicate. She flips her tit and gets pissed which is pointless. Ben then mysteriously finds out that I told Ashton and then gets angry with me. ONCE AGAIN I TRY TO HELP I DO HELP AND THEN I AM THE ONE WHO EVERYONE HATES. You know what I don't need this fucking drama in my life every freaken day. I don't understand why Ben is mad at me because all I did was tell Ashton that she doesn't have to worry about breaking up with him because she was communicating. If Ben doesn't believe me he can ask Toni because she was right there and heard what I said and didn't think that what I said was a big deal. I don't know why every day is fine and then as soon as a leave or someone leaves hell breaks loose. Because this always happens. NOBODY can say anything to anyones faces it sick. Well you know what I am the only freaken one who speaks his mind. And sometimes Toni speaks her mind. Ben says stuff if needs to which is fine. But Ashton never ever says anythign to anyones face and then bitches about it to everyone else. You should always say what you feel no matter what you can make friends that way and you can also make enemies that way too. But it is being truthful and then people know who you really are. Ben I just hope that you read this and realize that I was just helping you and I think that I did help and then I was telling her not to worry about it and once again things get blown out of proportion and I look like an asswipe and you can believe who you want but you can ask TONI if you don't believe me. ~K~ ON TO A NEW SUBJECT! I had fun at Kim's house tonight. I walk in to find a cow mooing at me and i jumped didn't scream but jumped really high. The cow's name is Morris. We went to block buster and saw Erin Horne I really don't hate her like some people but its just that it seems that she doesn't like me but whatever. We came home from BlockBUSTER and found Eric Reynolds cooking with Mrs. Sousa lol it was so funny. He was like Betty Crocker (i think thats her name lol) Well then after that we watched this movie called Ginger Snaps it was so messed up the guy pissed blood that is so gross and all of the guys there like started screaming it was so funny. Well I think that is all I had a very two sided day today but tomorrow I am going ice skating with Stacy again it will be fun lol Ok journal I will talk to you later luv ya Kayla (journal's name) bye bye

OK WHAT AM I GOING TO DO TODAY

Thu, 21 Feb 2002 20:36:32 GMT

I was supposed to do stuff with like a million people today. I was supposed to do my project with Alison.Then I was supposed to go to Kim's house. I was also supposed to hang out with Toni and Ben and Ashton. But now I don't know what I am going to do at all. Because nobody can come here because my mother is wicked sick and Kim Sousa has homework to do and then Ben can't go out becuase he has a wake to go to and Ashton is probably grounded. Oh and I just found out that Toni has a friend over and is going bowling. Ok I guess that leaves me with Alison Jess and Taylor so I think I will do something with them. But what they can't come here because of my mom she is on her death bed (not really) Well you know what I think that I am going to try and convince my MOM to just let them three come over because one of them (OSON) is coming over to do homework and then the other two are just to watch a movie or like a million movies. I want to have a fun movie day and thats what we do but everytime we try to do that they just end up talking and I get into what they are saying rather then the movie lol. I wicked want to do that we can watch Hook and do our math project lol. OMG Why does my mom have to be sick i know its not her fault but it is like ruining my vacation and my dad's and her's. WOW this stinks I am going to try and get my mom to change her mind. I have a feeling if I ask my Dad we will just get into another one of our hour long fights and to be hones with you Kayla I am not in the mood.Well I am goign to try my best but I have a feeling she is just going to ground me. Well do you like all of my quizzes lol they are such much fun Kayla. I want a Harry Potter one but I don't know where any of these quizzes are I am like Brit we just get them from other people's journals. I know I am lame. Oh did I mention that me and Jess V have made our own community journal. It will be fun. I set up a journal for Ben Cobb too. Except I kind of said that his email address was mine otherwise it wouldn't have worked. I don't think that that really matters everything that gets sent to me i will just send to him the only thing that should be sent would be the stupid comments but you can ead that on the actual journal. OK Kayla that's all for now I will probably write later. Oh yeah Kim Sousa said that she won't sing with me again. :( That wicked sucks because I think that we would sound good together. But no now I don't get to sing anything. I really wouldn't sing that song with anyone else because she sings really well but hey I tried all I could. Now she is the bad guy. (ISJ) Well thats all Kayla (journal's name) BYE BYE

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STILL HAPPY

Tue, 19 Feb 2002 03:39:49 GMT

I love my life. It is still very fun. Right now I am on February vacation but still managing to keep busy. Toni is great I keep seeing her all the time which is good. Ben went on vacation and Jessika went on vacation she came back today and Ben comes back tomorrow. Jessika called me and I called her but the phone was busy or something and then I came on line to see if she was on and she wasn't so I think that her mom was probably the one online. Well we were supposed to watch moulin rouge but it is good that we didn't yet because OSON wants to see it too see we can have a pequeno movie night at Matt's house lol. Ok Kim Sousa I hate you. Not really but still you hurt my feelings. Because I really wanted to sing that song with you and now you don't want to or whatever and you are being mean about it. :( Well I still love ya. Maybe I will ask like Tricia to sing with me but i don't know if i really want to do it. Whatever no big deal. OH and everyone I have come to the conclusion that I am ugly lol . And if you read this which at least a few people should COMMENT TO THE FACT THAT I AM UGLY. Except Jessika because she will agree with me lol. Taylor you geek your dad showed up at my house at like 10 ringing my doorbell to see where you were. You have to tell you parents where you are going Taylor. Because i didn't know what to say to your Dad but I didn't talk to you all day and I wasn't going to lie to your Dad. I hope he found you ok and everything. I mean i hope you aren't lying dead in the road somewhere lol. Oh everyone check my homepage. Get to it through my profile. I need you to check it to see if i forgot anyones names because i did it quick and a lot of people have the same names so when i read over it i think of that person twice i am dumb like that. Well if you haven't noticed I am looking for comments here lol. Tara sent me and email again i think its great that we are still keeping in touch because she was like a close friend when she was down here and even though she is all the way in Oregon we still have a way to keep in touch. The internet rocks. It kicks big ass lol. Speaking of asses I wish I had one. I swear to god its like worst then flat. I have no but. lol I swear it like curves in lol jk Mitchell got live journal and he told me his username but i forgot so mitchell if you read this then comment to it or anyone who knows mitchell's sn then COMMENT with his name. And yes i am desperate for comments i don't have a life. Even though i do . Lol I went ice skating with Stacy i haven't been skating in like five years. It was fun thouhg I only fell once I think that I want to go again. That is how good of a time I had. LOL I say lol alot lol. Ok tomorrow I am supposed to be celebrating Valentine's Day its either tomorrow or its going to be Wednsday either way its late which stinks but oh well what are you going to do. Well you know what I am going to zip my lip before you bust my hip you dip (isj) (random i know) Well thats all Kayla(journal's name) I will talk to you tomorrow bye bye

OH MY I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM WRITING AGAIN

Tue, 12 Feb 2002 03:57:58 GMT

Wow I haven't written in my journal in like forever. I miss it though so I think that I am going to come back to a daily basis of writing. I don't even know if I remember the name to my journal. LOL Well i think it was Kayla and if it wasn't oh well then i am sorry that i called you by the wrong name journal. Well the last time i wrote I was probably talking to Tara but she is back in Oregon and she wrote me an email the other day. It was nice just saying that she missed me and all that stuff. Well I am currently a sophmore at Case High School and I am a very happy sophmore at that. I have some great friends like Jessica back in my life. Jess and I got into a really big fight and distanced ourselves but we are on best friend terms again. I have a lot of best friends i just love people. Julie brings me to school everyday god bless her. I am going out with some one Kayla(if thats your name). Her name is TONI-ANN she is great. She is from Somerset and she is a little bit younger then me but still she is wonderful. I love everyone right now I am at a good point in my life. I am captain of Mock Trial - Historian of the the Theatre company things are looking good in the future. In Mock Trial we are 3 for 3 and could go to the Sweet Sixteen which is awesome. The semi is coming up soon. But the problem is i really don't want to go and even if i did then i would have a problem. Because Toni would want me to bring her but Oson already asked me to go before toni so i don't know what to do. I think I am going to go now though it has been great talking to you again we'll do lunch lol. WEll BYE BYE KAYLA

OOPS

Wed, 20 Jun 2001 20:24:10 GMT

I forgot to tell all my friends that are listed as friends can come and read my journal but you first have to typed in your user name and then type in my user name it will get you to my profile and then you click on my username it will bring you to a journal that only people that I have listed as friends can read my new entries after some people were rejected and so I went to this

Stay Away

Mon, 18 Jun 2001 02:49:12 GMT

Ok guess what if you are not a close friend of mine then don't read my journal everyone that i am friendly with is allowed to read it. But people who I do not talk to should not be reading this and if they want to then be my guest but don't go around telling people that I write about them in some journal. this is my personal thoughts and it is how I manage to not have a stroke with all the stress I am under. So you know exactly who you are don't read it again if you plan on going around telling people what I write completely out of context. BYe Kayla (journal's name) COUNTDOWN- Banquette 1 Day

That was pretty damn weird

Sun, 17 Jun 2001 19:24:51 GMT

Ok LOL You know how I just wrote about how sick I was and that I was praying to get better? Well it worked! I feel perfectly fine and it is only like a half an hour later. Weird huh. So this means I will have fun tomorrow night at the drama banquette. I am supposed to call Tara today but I don't know if I can. I mean it is going to be extrememly weird talking to someone that I haven't talked to in a really long time. I know things will get back to the way they used to be but i still think we need some time to adjust. I called JEN to call her on three way but no one was home I think that she probably went to her dad's. We were supposed to have a night together with Tara but I think because its father's day that we should hold on a bit. Also we are not doing anything during the day so maybe we can all do something like go to the mall or what not but we have a whole summer together I think that is so incredibly awesome. Katie Mosher and I are really big losers. LOL. We want to go see Atlantis so Katie,Tara, and I are going to go see that. (probably) I still have to get in touch with some people for the Martin House and I am goign to set a date because we keep on beating around the bush. I have to start my biology honors paper.I think that is so not funny that she is making us do a ten page report on the mad cow disease I mean come on,LOL I think I lost my paper that you are supposed to go by. Yikes I will have to get in touch with Tricia and make a copy of hers. LOL I probably have it around somewhere I better go look. Well that is all Kayla (journal's name). I think it is so weird how I was sick a little while ago and now I am like reborn lol. ok well bye bye

I Feel Terrible

Sun, 17 Jun 2001 18:22:15 GMT

Tara is home she wrote me an email to tell everyone that she has arrived. I was really excited at first but now I am thinking about other things like how sick I am. I do not feel well at all I have been vommitting on and off and to top it all off its father's day and tomorrow is the banquet this is just great. They are all uopstairs having a nice meal and talk while I sit down here typing away sitting about two inches from a bathroom. Not fun I tell you. Oh well I will live. I hope that I am feeling better before tomorrow because tomorow is the drama banquet I want to have fun but if I am feeling like this I doubt that I will. What I think I need right now is some rest so I will probably write back after I have slept and feel better. Bye bye Kayla *journal's name)

YAY

Sat, 16 Jun 2001 21:09:52 GMT

Ok I am so excited Tara is coming home today!!!! Also she wrote back to me and look at what she wrote you know how before I didn;t know if it was bad or good? Well I do now and its all good lol Tara writes:
Matt! Oh my gosh do you know how to make a girl cry and feel all mushy gushy inside. WOw...I wish that you were here right now. I really need hugs! Especially yours...wow matt did I ever tell you that you make me feel so good? WOw I feel so special and loved and all this happiness! I'm just so excited..to see you and go out and hang with all you guys again!! Well. I'm on my way in 8 hours...I have to go finish packing and get some sleep...

LOVE YOU SO MUCH... MISS YOU TOO! LOVE ALWAYS <3<3<3<3 Tara~*

ps. I remember that poem too....I think about that all the time, it's so weird that you mentioned that....
Doesn't that sound great lol I thought so. I have the carnival tonight but I am not to sure if I want to go now because Chris told me that it was terrible and then I heard from someone else that one of the rides flipped over!! That would be terrible I can't die until I see Tara again and then go to the banquette so I don't think I am going to go but I will probably give them a call and see if they are still going because I know that Mel is going and Nick and Julie but Julie isn't going until 8 and how cute would that be to let Mel and Nick have some alone time O yeah Kim is supposed to go maybe I will go Kim is awesome lol I love ya kim. Eric might go to I think I am going to give him a call and see if he is going. Plus tonight is the fireworks night but I don't know we will have to see. LOL Plus nobody is home and I really don't feel like going there alone and then no1 shows up and I look like a retard. LOL Well that is all for today Kayla (journal's name) Ok well this is the last two part countdown :( COUNTDOWN- Tara TODAY! Banquette Two Days! So close what will I count down after the banquette Life will no longer be worth living without my countdown LOL

Good/Bad? (You tell me)

Fri, 15 Jun 2001 19:38:34 GMT

Ok well you know how I emailed Tara well she emailed me back and I don't know how to take it can you guys help me by posting ok this is exactly what she wrote.....

Matt, wow, well that took me by surprise. I mean I knew that you still had feelings for me but I didn't think that you would ever act on them again. I'm not sure how to respond because I was kinda hurt by your last email when you said that you just didn't think it would work after I poured my heart out to you, but then again, I can't help but think about how much I miss you and wonder what it would be like to be with you again. I think that when I get there we will have much to talk about. Just know, that I never have and probably never will stop loving you no matter what. Even if we decide to remain friends, I still will love you just because you are you. And I have always felt this way about you. It's just the crazy person that I am. Well see you soon,, be sure to call me and we will arrange something for maybe this weekend or next week! I'm not quite sure how my schedule is going to go yet, because my mom has stuff planned too. She's married now, did I tell you that? Ya I didn't get to go to the wedding because she wanted it to just be him and her, but oh well. Anyway...See you soon. Miss you lots...MUAH! hehe...Love
Tara~*

What do I think I mean it sounds like she has feelings for me but then she was like saying how I hurt her but then after she wrote that to me i wrote this to her.....

Ok Tara I know that i said before we couldn't act on it because you live so far away amd you would onlu be here for the summer. However, some of my closest friends told me that i shouldn't think about the future I should think about what is here right before me and when you have to leave you have to leave. But I feel the same way you can ask anyone down here I told them that I have always loved you and will always love you and it was kind of scary that you said that too. I know things have probably changed a lot but deep down I still feel like I know you more than I know me and i think it could work. If not its friends first and we will always stay that way forever remember our promise Friends Forever I intend to keep that promise. And I would love to do something over the weekend but not saturday because you are going to need your rest and then I have a banquette for our theatre company on Monday so Sunday sounds good to me or sometime during the week I will definetely give you a call and we will work around your mom's plans I miss you so much and everyone that I have asked now has told me that they remember how cute we used to be together and how it would be so cool to see us together again. I never meant to hurt you by saying that before I just was thinking of the future it was a stupid mistake. And yes we definetely will have a lot to talk about. WBS I am going to have to wait another day :( I will get over it. You are on my mind all the time and I am online like all day waiting for you to email me lol.

Tell me what you think!!!!! Bye Bye Kayla (journal's name) COUNTDOWN: 1 Day Tara 3 Days Banquette